Tuesday, April 27, 2010
You Are What You Eat!
You are what you eat!
I know this! I really do, but I’m like a terrible addict and refuse to admit it, until now. I did a tri of sorts at the gym on Sunday and I was just dragging @ss. I’ve made lots of changes in my lifestyle in the last 6 months, but I’m just not willing (ready) to do everything I KNOW I need to do. I feel like that show “Intervention” where they just ask the addict if they want to go to rehab and they say “no”! We in the audience are like “what? Are you an idiot?”
I eat appropriate portions, I usually eat low fat, I try to get a good variety. I don’t drink caffeinated/carbonated beverages. I eat appropriate calories during long workouts! My problem is that I enjoy FOOD, especially Carbs and Cheese! If someone makes cheesy, meaty lasagna, I’m going to eat it. If I see pizza, I’m going to eat it. My mother-in-law-s cheesy broccoli casserole- YYYUUUMMM!!! If there are chips and salsa near me; I’m going to eat them. I’ll eat a smaller portion than I used to, but I’m going to eat it. If someone brings Wings, I'm going to eat them! (I won't dip in Bleu Cheese). AND.... my big downfall.. if there are Peanut Butter Eggs in front of me, they will be in my mouth - I don't know how it happens, it just does.......You get the point!
I’ve made so many sacrifices with time and money with all this working out and training, and it's quite sad that I’m not ready to make this final leap. If I could really just take another 20 pounds off, I could actually be fast instead of just “steady.”
I know everyone has struggles somewhere, this happens to be mine. I’m not gaining weight, but I’m not losing it either. I’ve given up on that idea, just want to be fit. I know though, that I will not get much faster until I decide to make this change. If I want to make the 17 hr cutoff for Ironman in 2 years, I will have to eventually make this change!
I've tried a few times and it just pisses me off. I get hungry, or I look at some yummy food and I think "I'm working out 7-10 hrs a week, why the hell can't I have that pasta?" - then if I actually pass and don't eat it, I just think about it for the next 2 days.
Sad thing is I know what I need to do, I know when I make bad decisions, I am just not ready. I'll get there, I guess :(.
I had a couple of interesting “guilt” meals, both with personal trainer friends (Alexis and Nicole). Its really funny how your choices can change when the people that surround you change. Neither of them said anything in particular, just their presence made me make better decisions!
So again, I thank my support group :).